Look Yourself in the Eyes

What are you believing as your truth? Look deep into your eyes and find your soul. Find your heart. Is it reflecting who you truly want to be?

It has taken way too many years for me to find my voice amongst all the voices in the world. I've been hiding behind insecurities, second guessing, people pleasing, that I have never truly figured out myself. I read a book a couple of years ago while I was wrestling with a major life decision. I may not remember the book but I remember clearly what it said, "you have to be ok with disappointing people." In that text I found a smidge of clarity and a slight shift to move in a different direction. I honestly believe that it is living in my sub conscience. This past year (which I've written about often) has created baby steps of my finding the "new" Britney. Don't get me wrong, I still struggle with all my flaws, but it's slowly getting easier to bounce back to being ok with who I am, for sticking up for myself and loving others boldly.

I know that when it's my time to go, I don't want my legacy to be the woman who was scared of everything. I feel like I've always been a natural worrier and raising tiny humans has made me more morbid. Any other mamas out there feel that way?! This is why I'm working SO FREAKING hard to change, to become stronger, to find my truth, to trust God in the good and with the bad. I am finding that the harder I fight to become this woman, the more things come my way to make me second guess my path. You want to know what though?? I will NOT let that happen, I will not let anxiety, low self esteem, stupid thoughts get in my way. This is doing such a disservice to myself and a disservice to my family.

It's easy for us (me) all to get caught up in the lies we think of ourselves, but you dear sister are better than those lies. If you have to keep reminding yourself you are strong everyday until you believe it, you should do it. Look yourself in the eyes and say it with meaning, just like you would your child. Write three things you love about yourself and put it on a mirror so you can see your worth. These things don't need to be physical, but they can be... write down whatever makes you feel good. I'm challenging myself to this too and I'll be posting it to my Social Media. The days of speaking ill of ourselves are over. Are you ready to see yourself in the light?

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